Warning: This is not one of my experiences, this is my thoughts on some news stories. If you don't want to loose more faith in humanity, I suggest not reading. If you are just here for my naughty exploits, and not for real tragedy (This is one reason I almost never read the news), then again, I suggest moving on to an article that does not have "News Reactions" in the title or label.
This is just sad: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/04/09/rehtaeh-parsons-girl-dies-suicide-rape-canada_n_3045033.html
And to add to the sadness: http://thechronicleherald.ca/metro/1122345-who-failed-rehtaeh-parsons#.UWPfLERNjaM.facebook
See, I know how a girl like her would feel. I have been in that place before. I have had my own personal experiences of being violated against my will. I hate to see things like this done to people, but I also hate to see people pushed so far they decide nothing is better than living. I have been there, I understand it, but I wish there was some way to prevent it.
If you are on the edge, ready to take that final solution, for gods sake, talk to someone. I have personally tried myself, and I am happy with who I am now, happy that I did not succeed. Yes, I am scarred for life. Don't believe me? Read about the things I have done right here in my very own blog, and you will understand that I did not simply walk away from certain events unscarred. But, even with all the bullshit, even with all the things that gave me nightmares and left me wanting to do nothing more than to forget everything completely, or end it all, I am still the person today, not in spite of what happened to me, but because of what happened to me, and today, I love my life.
You do deserve to live, to be happy. You can get over all the garbage, the damage, the pure anguish. A permanent solution to a temporary problem means the loss of another world, for we are each a world unto ourselves, each precious and unique in our own ways (Yes, someone probably wants to tell me that "we are all precious little snowflakes, just like everyone else" as if trying to prove that everyone is alike, but look at people honestly, and you will see that even those things we do that might be similar or exactly the same as another, is combined with other things that is not the same. Call it a unique combination of non-unique personal traits if you want, but I want you to show me two people who are exactly the same in every single way). And if you are thinking about doing this and really need to talk to someone, shoot me a private email. I am a real person, with real feelings, not just some autonomous android robot sex girl. While my blog is dedicated to my naughty exploits, I care about more than you see here. This is just a single, small part of who I truly am.
And if you are the bully, if you are the victimizer, please stop. Is short term gratification worth the consequences if/when you get caught? Think about what these boys lives will be like now, until the day they die. Do you honestly think they would have done the things they did if they knew they would be caught? Do you honestly think you would want to deal with the consequences? The internet is full of naughty things that can tantalize even the most deviant people among us. There is no reason to ruin your or your victims life.
Please remember, fantasies are great. Organize them, engage in them, find some videos of them (please try to make sure it is a fantasy production, not a real life video, since the real videos being spread just gives more incentives to exploit real people, and remember, especially if your a woman, to be safe, make sure you have your safe words, and protect yourself from a fantasy turning into a reality by engaging in it with a person you know and trust completely, preferably a spouse). Fantasize, organize, materialize, but please, please, don't ever engage in the reality. This is just horrible, and it makes me feel sick.
Leave your comments below, or if you are just here for my personal stories, avoid this article completely.
I read this article and it made me sad as well. I agree with everything you said about getting help and not choosing a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I am personally and somewhat deviantly pleased that your life has taken the turns it has taken to take you to the beautiful place that you are today, but I really, really empathize with what happened to this girl. As an aside, the reason I hadn't responded to your blog with my comments over the last couple of days was because I was at the memorial for my nephew, who shot himself at age 27 after coming out a couple of years ago. Really, get help. Call someone. Write an email. Don't check out.
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you in your time of loss. Nothing can replace a lost loved one, and we are all a little worse off due to it.
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